2011-06-18

slender man
slender man

all the children try to run







slender
man





to him its














































oh god




god


someone







help me









oh god






stop

s
stop



why

i'll do any


thing
if you just stop


stop






ill do anything





i wont run


just



i saidd






i said i"ll do anything










god





someone
i think he is


going to
kill


me





help me











































































































































they are going to



to kill me































not now
no




stop







dont killme























his name
is











someone



















please i

i cant run







can't






















don;t kill me



























his name is











no











thats not him anymore



























thats not his name anymore



























his name is















cheshire















































































































2011-06-11

Qui tacet consentit

One two three four -
we will walk right through that door!
Five six seven eight -
who do we appreciate?
Balance.

Sierra is growing so fast.

He's much better now

than he was when I found him.

And he and Mab are so cute when they play.

I'm so glad I could help them.

Also,

at rehearsal today,

I saw a man in the audience.

I couldn't make out his face,

since he was sitting way in the back,

in the dark.

I don't think anyone else noticed him.

He didn't say anything,

he didn't wave when I did,

and by the time we were done and leaving,

he had gone.

The way he walked

seemed almost familiar.

Almost doglike.

But I only saw it for a moment,

as the tails of his coat

swished out the door.

I was so intrigued,

I checked the security footage.

He only showed up for a few seconds,

and seemed out of place.

In fact,

he seemed like he belonged in the play.

The way he moved,

it was almost as if

he wanted me to memorize what he looked like.

Well, I did.

A long tailcoat,

and pants so dark

you couldn't see the creases.

A dark bow-tie,

and a top hat,

with something tucked into the ribbon.

He even had a monocle

 and cane,

and a thickgold pocket-watch and chain.

The strangest thing about him

was that he had a cigar in his mouth,

but not lit -

he was just chewing on it.

He was a bit heavy-looking,

but mostly very athletic-looking.

Then he tipped his hat to the camera,

and disappeared.

I asked some of the other cast members

if they knew anyone like that.

Something was bugging me.

I knew him.

The way he walked,

the way he moved,

even the way he stood.

The next time I see him,

I won't wait.

I'll rush after him.

I'll remember who he is.

Maybe

I'll even get an outfit like his.

It was simply fabulous.

I loved it.

This is who I am. This is what I've done. Now who wants to take on the champ?

Can't see me if I'm here!
But I'm still here!
Can't see me!
Never mind.
Balance.

You're auditioning for a Broadway play.

You're last in line,

after a long assortment

of famous singers

and gorgeous actors.

The readings are first.

There's the part of Amanda,

the overworked step-mom.

There's the part of Bruce,

the imprisoned stylist.

There's even the part of Corey,

bird that makes friends with the cat trying to eat him.

Then, the singing.

They sing about how they love the theater,

they sing about how their lover deserted them.

They sing about how much worse their life is than anyone else's,

they sing about how much better it is.

A thousand songs,

all beautiful,

all wonderfully sung,

all meaningless.

Finally,

it's your turn.

You trudge up the stairs,

knowing you won't get a part,

hoping beyond hope that you will.

You whisper at first.

You begin to stutter,

you stop.

You think that if you say one more thing,

you'll ruin your chances

forever.

But then you close your eyes,

and you sing.

You sing,

you sing the most amazing song any of the people in that room

had ever heard.

You belt it out as if you couldn't hold it in anymore,

and even as you take a peek at your captive audience,

you grin,

because it's your song,

something you wrote,

something you composed.

When you finish,

some of the other actors

scoff.

They boo.

They ask you who you think you are

to come and upstage them like that.

You ignore them almost the whole way out the door,

when you turn,

you shout back,

I'm the champ.

The next day,

you get a call

from the casting director.


-/|\-

2011-06-10

Seven for a secret, not to be told.

It used to be that left was left
but now blue is orange.
Balance.

The Fourth of July.

Fireworks sizzle and explode,

and the festivities are so full of energy

it's as if the world itself is smiling.

You are with your parents.

They seem very nervous.

You can't tell what's wrong.

It's as if they're hiding something,

but you couldn't think what or why.

You sleep on it,

you wake on it,

you can't get it out of your mind.

Then, they hit you with it:

a present.

Not a material thing -

a kitten.

A little cat, for you to love

and take care of

and to be your friend.

You shriek,

you scream,

you cry,

and you hug them to no end.

But even as you're brushing the kitten,

late at night,

in your bed,

you're worried.

You don't know -

should you tell them your secret


~Schrödinger

2011-06-09

We're all trapped in a maze of relationships. Life goes on with or without you.

Nothing can EVER stop me,
not if I'm over here!
Balance.

You beg,

you plead,

you try,

but they still say no.

You whine,

you cry,

you scream,

but they still say no.

You don't understand.

You loved them.

You loved them to the ends of the Earth,

and yet they didn't love you.

It doesn't take long

before they're gone.

You're left all alone.

You spiral downwards.

You try everything to get them back,

and when nothing works,

you try everything to forget them.

You binge,

you splurge,

you go on vacation,

you get three other jobs,

but nothing gets them out of your head.

Nothing.

One day, you get a call.

You can't tell who it's from,

you can't tell why anyone would be calling you,

but it asks you to be somewhere,

to meet someone,

so you go

because you have nothing better to do.

You get there,

and there is your friend,

your long-time friend,

waiting for you

with flowers and ice cream and all your favorite things.

You squeal, you grin,

you tackle them in a hug.

They know just how to make you feel better.

And when all is said and done,

you realize you couldn't have loved them.

You couldn't have loved them,

because they never loved you.

You couldn't have loved them,

because when you give love,

you get love.

If they didn't give



2011-06-08

I find myself about to peer into an abyss... Will it stare back when I examine it?

Can they see me over here?
They can if I go
back over here!
Balance.

You're in a hospital.

Your grandmother is dying.

She has cancer or heart disease or some other horrible thing -

but you're young. All you know is she's dying.

You stay by her side,

day and night,

rain and shine,

hunger and sleep.

You never leave,

always hoping,

always praying,

that she'll get better.

The doctors tell you that you have to leave.

Your parents tell you that you have to move on.

Your teachers tell you that you have to come back to school.

With a great deal of crying,

you go,

knowing she has no chance,

hating yourself for not being there.

After watching her suffer for so long,

you suffer.

It's almost as if you had traded places.

Now you feel as bad as she does,

you're in as much pain,

you feel as helpless as she must.

Weeks pass.

Weeks turn into months.

Maybe months even turn into years.

Then, one day,

when you're least expecting it,

you get the news:


Signing off. (Comfort)

2011-06-07

I'm outside your window looking in at the pretty light in your eyes.

Can't see me.
Can't catch me.
Can't get me.
Can't hurt me.
Balance.

It's a cold,

snowy winter night.

You're sitting inside your house,

sipping hot chocolate,

eating marshmallows,

smiling and having fun by the fire.

You giggle and grin

you shuffle and snicker.

You're having a great time.

Then, you hear a scratching noise at the window.

Something's there.

For a moment, you're afraid

but then you get up and walk towards the window.

There, staring in at you,

is a half-frozen kitten.

You can't help but clutch your heart

and stifle your tears.

You hurriedly open the window and pull in the kitten.

You feed it and wash it and heal it and warm it.

Most of all, you love it.

After some time, you realize

that this is the neighbor's cat,

the neighbor who treated it so badly.

You decide not to send it back home,

but you know you can't keep it.

You take the kitten to a friend,

a good friend,

someone you know will love it as much as you did.

And when it's all grown up,

the cat recognizes you.

It knows you saved it,

and it thanks you,

silently,

and you smile and cuddle it.

You're still sad you couldn't keep it,

but you're glad that it grew up


Forever will come someday.

2011-06-02

"Forget the reasons why it won't work, and believe the one reason why it will"

Seven
eight
nine
and...
Balance.

It's the science fair,

and you've done an experiment

to see if leaves

can be used as a source of power.

Your teacher cheers you on

with the quietest of cheers.

Your friends laugh and make fun,

your parents wonder if you're crazy.

You persist.

You get all the leaves you can get,

all kinds,

all sizes and shapes,

all colors and weights.

Nobody thinks it's going to work

nobody but you.

The day of the fair approaches.

You set up your display

and await the judges.

As soon as they come,

you flip the switch

and the bulb turns on.

A gasp -

a faint -

a scream -

a shock -

first prize!

You're so glad

that you did it

that you don't even realize

someone hid a battery


Stay safe, everyone.