if i may

i would like to take a leaf from a friend's book

ahem



oh well in five years' time

we could be walking 'round a zoo

with the sun shining down over me and you

and there'll be love in the bodies of the elephants too

and i'll put my

hands over your eyes

but you'll peek through

and there'll be

sun, sun, sun

all over our bodies

and sun, sun, sun

all down our necks

and there'll be sun, sun, sun

all over our faces

and sun, sun, sun 

so what the heck?

'cause i'll be laughing at all your

silly little jokes

and we'll be laughing about how we

used to smoke

all those stupid little cigarettes

and drink stupid wine

'cause it's what

we needed

to have a good time

but it was

fun, fun, fun

when we were drinking it was

fun, fun, fun

when we were drunk and it was

fun, fun, fun

when we were laughing it was fun, fun, fun

oh it was fun

oh well i'll look at you and say it's the happiest that i've ever been

i'll say

i no longer feel i have to be James Dean

and she'll say

yeah well i feel

oh pretty happy too

and i'm always pretty happy when i'm just kickin' back with you

and it'd be

love, love, love

all through our bodies

and love, love, love

all through our minds

and it'd be love, love, love

all over her face

and love, love, love

all over mine

and though admittedly all these moments

are just in my head

i'll be thinking about them as i'm

lying in bed

and i know that admittedly

it might not even come true

but in my mind i'm having a pretty good
time with you oh

in five years' time

i might not know you

in five years' time

we might not speak oh

in five years' time

we might not get along

in five years' time

you might just prove

me

wrong

oh there'll be love, love, love

wherever you go

there'll be love, love, love

wherever you go

there'll be love, love, love

wherever you go

there'll be love, love, love

wherever you go

there'll be love, love, love

wherever you go

there'll be love, love, love

wherever you go

there'll be love, love, love

wherever you go

there'll be love, love, love

wherever you go

there'll be l♥ve















































i still feel like, uh


well, like shit




but i feel better?


and i'm sorry for -

you know.

i'm sorry

to you, Corey, to Sonia

to you, Elaine,

to you, Sir Thighpiece,

and you, Hakurei,

and you, Nick,

and you, Morningstar,

and Killjay,

and John











and to you, Maurice











and everyone else

all the names i can't say

all the names i don't know





i'm sorry




i'd Run if i thought i could




i'm not in any condition to do so







though if you want to come and pick me up







i'd be happy to get as far away from cheshire as possible





they're releasing me from the hospital in nine hours








they don't know i'm on the computer


they wouldn't want me to be





Corey brought me a laptop to use, courtesy of Sonia


















whatever you think

of me

of anyone



whatever you know

whatever you see






just remember


i'm here




i'm smiling




i'm happy






and i love you

all of you


and that love is deep-seated enough that i can





that i can promise


i won't go down while i have that love





i can promise i won't go down without a fight